Fuck all this

So fucking sick of hearing about people
Being so sick
And in nursing homes
And hospitals
Just so fucking sick of it there's no point in life
If its just going to end up like that

Bad end

Tried to be the bigger person
Lesson learned
That was a bad idea
Cause all it did was cause me pain
Tried to mend the broken pieces
Ha what a lost cause
This relationship is going nowhere but downhill
Bill

Overload

So much to do
Can't do it
How do I handle it all
And keep my boyfriend happy at the same time
Where's the balance
I need some help gettin through

Envy

It's annoying
The ugliest trait
Only brings about problems
I have nothing to worry about
So why do I constantly feel it?

Low point

Hard to breath
Hard to sleep
Hard to talk n walk
Depressed, obsessed at the same time
How about I sleep forever
By your side
I don't know how to deal with death ever have, never will
Yeah it's killin me

Spanish classes

What's with them? They're all bad

9 in the Afternoon

Why aren't you sleeping next to me
Want to hear you breathe
Feel your breath on the back of my neck
And the way your body subconsciously moves with mine even when you're unconscious
Want to fall out of bed with you
In the morning

In love

Tears of love
Couldn't ask for more than him
Many things change including myself, but one thing doesn't
I love him
More and more with every second of every day
No one is better for me than him
That,
I am sure of

Sucks

Girls suck
Today sucks
Stop telling me my boyfriend is hot
I know that, I've been with him for over 2 goddamn years
What's with today and girls and him

Morning

Wake up
Stretch
Hydrate
Shower
Say Goodmorning to Wallrus
Attempts to look pretty
Candles out, shades up
Coffee coffee coffee

Words I enjoy

•Snooze

Better?

Is life merely this struggle of finding who you are?
A struggle or a sacred journey?
Will I have some great epiphany about what I am and what I want or will I be forever finding bits and pieces of what I think is me,
Only to find that I dislike what I was a few years later
I'm happy with this life
But does it get better?

Tranquility

Lovely quiet evening
Spilling my soul out on the canvas because it's the best way I know to get out how I feel
Laying in dim lighting reading jack Kerouac stories
Filling my plants' vacuoles with water
conversations about life with myself and Wallace
Now the only thing that is missing is you

Nomnoms

I shall eat only the following:
•soymilk
•salad
•fruit
•rice (brown or wild)
•granola
•eggs
•water
•pesto/ tomato sauce/ salsa
•nuts
•smoothies
•granola bars